Running and Running

Running and running and running. That was last night. I never saw those little feet stop moving. For a normal child this would be a great way to get them to sleep well. Problem is ADHD has something else to say about this. In fact it was literally 4 hours of running while we were at daddy's horseshoe games last night. The other kids stopping to take a breath and my son yelling "Come on you guys, I can't stop yet!" As the night wound down and it got darker, I told him to stay right next to me or at least where I could see him. Next thing I know, my child is missing. I can hear him so I know he is nearby. Problem is I'm not sure where! "Hey, buddy, where are you?" "I'm chasing the fireflies mom!" he yelled back. "I told you to stay where I can see you!" "Well if I stop and look I can see you!" Ok so another ADHD thing. If I can see you, that must mean you can see me! Which I guess makes sense but then this comment came "The fireflies didn't tell me that I was way over there, mom."

My son seems to think there are voices in his head. They tell him that people don't like him, or that no one loves him. They tell him to do things that he knows are wrong. They tell him that on some days he is a good kid and some days he isn't. I know just like any other parent that he is perfect just the way he is. It saddens me when I hear him say things like that. But that is another part of this monster that controls him.

So anyway, back to running and running. All of the kids, including mine, are now starting to congregate by their families. Mine is still jumping and talking a mile a minute. We get in the car to go home, and (although wishful thinking) we think he will be asleep in no time. Running and running, right! We get home, still awake and going. To late to get a sleeping pill down, hopefully he is ragged enough to fall asleep. 2 am, still awake. This morning he tells me that he stayed up all night, having a party by himself. My poor little man.

I don't know if I should look at his meds again even though it's summer and he can run and run. I don't like that he doesn't eat. Any ideas?